2009 - Reflections Of The Past

I'll cut my reflections into categories, as I have so much to say.

Family

I cannot even begin to touch on this subject. My family has been more than wonderful, and watching H grow has been amazing. I couldn't ask for better and I am enjoying every moment of it. My sister has started college, my brother is getting married next year, and my youngest brother has started kindergarten! So many changes taking place but its been so great watching everyone grow and go in their own directions.

We've welcomed my brothers fiancee with open arms. Shes a wonderful, loving and caring woman, and I couldnt imagine W finding better.

My sister has gone through a tremendously difficult ordeal, and she has remained strong and sturdy through it all. I can't imagine a stronger woman, or a person I look up to more. Shes taught me so much about healing and acceptance than she will ever know.

Its been so good to watch my youngest brother open up and blossom from the quiet shy boy he was before into the social loving dork he is today. I'm sure he will do great things.

H has gotten so big! Its remarkable watching everything she can do, and seeing pictures from even just a year previous. Shes changed and grown so much.

On the complete otherhand, theres my inlaws. Who even on my best day of tolerance I cannot begin to understand. They have proven to be no more than what I first perceived. Manipulative, hateful and cruel. His Nan, and his Aunt seem to be the only two acceptions to that rule, and I'm hoping that doesnt change. As for the rest of them, we still have not heard a nice word from any of them, and to R, that is just proof he made the right decision cutting contact with them those two years ago. He has grown in their absence into a strong willed, supportive and decisive man I am proud to soon call my husband.

Home

We've spent so much time looking for a new apartment, and still have not moved. Everytime I get just on that edge of readiness, something else happens and stalls our plans. Maybe 2010 will be the year.

Finances

Although our savings account has not grown, we've at least gotten a good deal of the debt wiped out ,with just a small amount to be paid remaining. Fixed some issues with the Credit Bureau and have even made some substantial purchases.

Health

This has been a year of ups and downs for me healthwise. As anyone close to me knows I was diagnosed with PCOS in November after a long period of pain and questions that went unanswered.

It was a bittersweet victory, being diagnosed. Although I'm elated to finally know what is wrong with me, its painful knowing that the road to having the family I dream of is going to be long, and possibly littered with failure.

I have lost 12 pounds to the date, although the holidays hindered that somewhat. I cut out white bread and pasta, and have followed a healthy eating regime for more than a month. It helps seeing actual results instead of the yo yoing I'm so accustomed to.

Lets hope 2010 brings so much more..